For now, I wanted to take a minute and jot down some things on where I am in this process, and what is to come.
I am currently on Back2Back's campus. I arrived here Saturday, and have been welcomed, encouraged, and poured into by the staff here. I have gone through some training, made some plans on what is to happen next, and have been helping around campus in whatever ways I can.
To be honest- I am completely overwhelmed. :) It's hard to explain though, because I do not mean that in a bad way. I think I tried explaining this feeling on here before. My mind feels like it's in overdrive! Processing everything that's happening, all the new information I am learning and the new role I will play. What life will look like and what I can do to ensure I am caring for these girls the very best way I am able. Processing feelings, fears, joys, missing people, seeing old friends, making new friends, and trying to find my place here has been a lot. In a truly wonderful way.
Both the back2back staff and the staff from the casa hogar have been absolutely remarkable. They have welcomed me and made me included, encouraged, and loved. It's been SUCH an easier transition than I had imagined. I know it will be hard, but I also know that I have support both here and in the states.
It is because of this support that I can do any of this.
My entire life has changed. Everything that was "normal" has shifted. To be honest, at times I feel inadequate. But I have learned, it is in these times that I consistently run to God. When I feel out of control, I can better understand that i was never in control in the first place. :) God brought me to this point. He has never failed me. His plan has been beyond perfect. How could I ever doubt Him now?
This Friday I will be moving into the children's home. I will begin to unpack, and start the next stage of this journey. I will be scared, excited, nervous, emotional, overwhelmed, filled with love, and so so so very thankful.
Those who know me know that this has been my heart for about 10 years now. To see this dream and passion start to unfold has been the most remarkable gift God has ever given me. For him to give me the responsibility of these girls is breathtaking to me. I feel so unworthy, and so very grateful.
