Really, I guess the truth is I don't do goodbyes at all.
I'd much rather say, "See you soon!" Partly because it's the truth, I will see you later. Partly because recognizing this is the end of a beautiful, wonderful chapter of my life (although it is also the start of something exciting and wonderful as well!) hurts. It's scary. I am afraid I will be forgotten. Although "goodbye" doesn't mean "goodbye forever," it means life will change. Relationships will look different. Not necessarily in a bad way, but change is sometimes scary.
To experience the generosity, support, love, and encouragement I have received has been truly overwhelming. It's like my heart is so full of feelings, experiences, and things I'd like to say, that I just don't even know where to begin.
For the past few days I have been attempting to find the words to express how I'm feeling. "Thank you" isn't enough. Not even close.
Spending time with everyone, reading the cards and notes I have received, the beautiful gifts and hugs...I cannot begin to explain how much it means to me.
I would not be here it wasn't for you. I wouldn't be going on this incredible journey, getting to pursue the greatest passion of my heart, if I didn't have you here. You are my support, the one who lifts me up when I feel I can't keep going. You make me feel like this is possible, like I can do it, even when it's terrifying. You make me brave, hopeful, excited to share this new part of life with you. You fill me up with love, and because of that I can share that love with these kids. It is because of who you are, the example you set, and the love and the hope that you have given me that makes me want to share what you have taught me to the world.
There is so much I want to say to each of you. How you have personally impacted my life. I hope one day to truly express what each of you means to me. The individual moments and deep impressions you have made on my life. Right now, it is simply too big and to strong to express. Words just don't do them justice.
I will need you now more than ever, I hope you realize that. This isn't and cannot be goodbye. :)
So, with that being said, "See you soon!"
